I am approaching my 53rd birthday in a few weeks and feel incredibly blessed to be in this moment. I feel very much like I am in the Zero point field, one where I AM and there is infinite possibility as I choose the life I am creating from this point. It is a place of harmony, silence, balance. To reach this point I had to learn to find pure alignment with myself, which was a process. I painted a lion several years ago, or I should say it kind of painted itself, a reminder to be fearless in my life, to walk with courage and purpose. I look at it every day and know who I AM.
One day I heard a whisper from deep in my soul. I heard it clear as day in my head as if someone was right up against my ear sharing a secret. It was my voice that whispered, “save yourself”. It was a deep knowing if I didn’t begin to honor myself, my life would slip away. It felt as if dying were a very real possibility even though I was physically very healthy. I had no compass or guide to help me, but I knew I had to find my authentic self. It was a slow process because I had never allowed myself the luxury of being 100% me. I started by doing things for myself guilt free. I spent time with friends. I found healing through art. I took up knitting, watercolor painting, scrapbooking. Expressing myself in art was the key that unlocked the first door to my inner self. There were many doors I had to go through and a lot of deep emotional things I had to heal within myself. Stories long buried were released over time. The unfolding from the caterpillar to the butterfly was beautiful and painful at the same time.
Deep down I knew something magnificent and powerful existed within me, but it took years for me to emerge completely. It’s one thing to know who you are and what you are capable of, but it’s another thing entirely to fully OWN it, and know you are worthy of it. I had no idea I was on a spiritual path of any kind. I wanted to be the best version of me, whatever that looked like. I was doing deep internal work and it took years to heal myself. I had no teacher, I had only my intuition which I followed. I read voraciously. I started to align more with my authentic self. The process comprised of truths around love, forgiveness, acceptance, and surrender. Once I learned to love myself completely, the magic began to unfold.
As I became more aligned, my intuition began to expand. I followed it. I have a gratitude practice and I meditate daily. I tamed the monkey mind. I paid attention to synchronicities and had an awareness that there was more to this world than the 3D reality presenting to me. I tuned in instead of tuned out. I began to detach from the social programming that said I had to act a certain way, believe certain things, or be defined by material possessions and accomplishments. I realized that I am enough being myself and living my life as the fullest expression of me. From this place of authenticity, I can offer more to others in terms of healing and support. I am a master at holding space for the people around me who are traveling their own paths. I am a life coach and Marconics Energy Practitioner which is how I show up in service to people.
I am everything and nothing. I am drifting in constant potential and creation. I draw to me everything I know I will be, yet already am. I have no fear. There is a deep knowing that the best is yet to come. I remain in my lane and focus on my work. I no longer look to the left or right of me. I know who I AM and what I am here to do. I am humbled by the incredible people in my circle. So many creating impact on humanity. We’ll see what unfolds for me this year. I am sending love to each and every one of you reading this blog today. Know you are magnificent and worthy. Keep the faith that anything and everything is possible even in the darkest times. Expect miracles and maybe by entertaining the possibility they will appear.
For those of you that are in my personal circle, thank you for being you, thank you for enriching my life. For those I have yet to meet, I am ever expanding to include you in my dreams for all of us to elevate together. Know you are far more powerful than you realize, and this human aspect is but a fractal of who you really are. When we do the inner healing work and become whole and complete, we can change the world!