Last year was a huge personal growth year for me. The most powerful lessons were driven home as 2018 ended. A huge lesson was to release all agendas. I used to fall into fear patterns where I had an agenda or desired outcome. I’d then attempt to create a specific outcome by trying to manipulate or control the people or circumstances around me. It never worked and usually left me feeling frustrated. This was a recurring theme in my life, and I recognize patterns and programs are clearing in layers. When I think I’ve finally mastered something, another situation in my life shows up reminding me that I have more work to do.
The first step towards change for me was recognizing negative feelings and releasing my agenda. Although miracles show up in my life on a regular basis, I’ve been asking myself some hard questions. Why do I have an agenda around anything? Why am I allowing fear and anxiety into my life? How can I shift this pattern? The holidays really triggered me this year and things didn’t go as I expected at all. I was hoping to spend all this quality time together, but I didn’t consider that our kids are nocturnal, and my husband and I are on a regular day schedule. There were so many adjustments and shifts taking place in my activity schedule, I finally just surrendered and adapted. Why fight it? I had the best trip but not the one I had originally planned. We didn’t have an amazing Christmas dinner at a nice steakhouse, we walked to Chinatown and had Hot Pot (which was so much fun and amazing).
HOW I LET GO OF MY AGENDA
In Houston, I wanted to take my younger son to tour Nasa which closed at 5:00. By the time everyone was ready to go it was 2:00 and during the drive down there was a major accident. I knew the tram tour takes an hour, so I felt this anxiety rise inside of me. I felt frustration around wanting to share this cool experience and the Universe taking its sweet time getting us to the venue. In the car I corrected my need to control our experience and knew that everything would work out perfectly. I released the need to take the tram tour and skip lunch to fit it all in. We had a nice lunch at the Space Center café despite our time limitations. I created the intention that we would see everything we wanted to see.
After recognizing my frustration and control pattern I surrendered. It was a beautiful day. I knew that it was going to unfold exactly as it should. We spent time exploring all the Nasa exhibits and found out we could view this huge rocket without taking the tram tour, we just had to drive over to the park. Long story short, we got everything in we wanted to see and had a great time. I released my agenda and realized perhaps there’s a better unfolding of events when I just let go. I know I should allow the Universe to guide me instead of me trying to guide the Universe.
I shifted my focus to enjoying my life completely. Every moment of my life is precious, it’s like gold to me. I refused to allow myself to waste a minute of my time in negativity, fear or doubt. I decided to be incredibly present in my life. When someone is talking to me, I am making eye contact and holding space. I’m very present for that person. I focused on opening my heart completely, which allowed me to show up with unconditional love and release all judgment.
Enjoying my life means accepting everyone for who they are and where they are. Releasing my agenda means allowing people to be who they are and meeting them there. Connecting to people heart to heart brings me so much joy. Inviting in delicious food, experiences, love, connection, travel and so much more creates soul expansion for me. Releasing attachment to people’s opinions of me, of the numbers (income, zip code, weight, likes on social media) has set me free. Allowing myself to be my authentic self with unconditional love allows energy to flow out of me freely with no expectation or score keeping. I live in the vibration of love and create magic and joy. I show people who they are by loving them and reflecting their light back to them.
THE ZERO POINT FIELD
The final thing I’ve done is focus on creation. I am in the Zero Point field which is literally the field of possibility. The Zero Point field is the place where everything is possible. When I am in this place of consciousness, it is a place where I am whole and complete mentally, spiritually, physically. It requires alignment within and a recognition and knowing of who I am and what I am capable of. I literally pulled all the fractals and pieces of myself together, healed those perceived broken aspects and embraced my authentic self. I elevated my awareness around how I walk through this world and what is being asked of me at this time. In this place of creation, I’ve had to be extremely mindful of my thoughts, as they carry energy and frequency and get pulsed out into the multiverse constantly. I’ve focused on creating outcomes far beyond what I thought was possible and continue to create the beautiful life I never dreamed was possible.
My life feels effortless. The more I surrender the easier it is. Once I mastered myself, I was able to transmute and shift negativity and lower vibrational experiences. The answers were within me the entire time. I had to take the time to be present and listen. I honored myself and the process. I released all that no longer served me. If you need help coming back to center or finding alignment with your truth and purpose in this life, I would love to work with you. I have the tools to help you energetically and emotionally release things that are holding you back. Life doesn’t have to be an uphill climb. Healing is possible. Living your best life is possible but it requires us to surrender and release the things keeping us from pure alignment with ourselves.